Failed VBAC and disappointed once again?

My first baby was born early at 35 weeks. She was an undiagnosed breech which lead to emergency Cesarean after 24 hour labour. She then spent two weeks in NICU for respiratory distress. My second baby was born just over a week ago and again I wanted a natural delivery. This time I had an ultra sound scan when I was 4cm dilated and baby was head down, in a good position to be born. Things progressed well and I was soon 10cm dilated. After about 1 hour of pushing I was told by my midwife who had 40 years experience that the head of the baby was trapped by one corner of the cervix that hadn't fully opened, probably due to baby position. Again, I ended up in theatre for my second emergency cesarean section. The surgeon had trouble pulling the baby out as his shoulder was trapped (he had turned during labour and we were back to back so he was face up.). During this operation the surgeon accidentally cut my bladder open and I had to undergo more surgery to fix it. On top of that my uterus and bladder had became joined, either because of the stitching method the surgeon from my first cesarean used, or because of the scar tissue joining them. I had to have a second cut to give them more room to work so now have a longer than usual cesarean scar. I am very disappointed as it would be lovely to give birth as nature intended and for my husband to cut the cord and not to have a long recovery period. Anyone else with similar experience?